I am slowly grasping the idea that as I go through life the number of friends I'll have will constantly dwindle. And it's not necessarily a bad thing but somehow when I look back on what I thought life would pan out, it is nowhere close. Heh.
Getting my degree is indeed pretty amazing but it's not all what I imagine it to feel. In fact alot of things aren't panning out to be exactly according to expectation. Some above them but of course, a few below them. Some, I did not even see coming.
I remember always craving to lead and yet now when I'm in the position to do so, I constantly seem to be questioning myself. Yep, I never quite thought I would be doing that. But I do it while consoling myself that it makes me an open minded leader. But does it really?
I always had my mind set on being married and having kids by the time I'm 29 and here I am at 27 looking at everyone on Facebook getting engaged, married and having kids. Am I bummed? Not really. Why? I still believe I have time.
Being brought up here constantly makes me feel like I'm in a time pressure cooker. Like I constantly have to rush everything about my life so that it "works out". What the hell does "work out" actually mean? Does that mean I'm happy? Contented? With kids, a wife, a house and a car?
I don't know what it means to be honest but I know now that I still have time. I need to come to terms with that if I intend to continue down this path my life is headed. I must remain resolute that things have their time and place and rushing it would most probably lead things to NOT "work out" instead.
Keep calm and just keep on keepin on.
