Saturday, March 30, 2019

Passings

One more light - Linkin Park

4 passings that I've been a part of within the last 5 years. And I guess each of them have thought me something.

When my grandmother passed, the lesson of family. And the importance of reaching out to them because when you pass, they'll be the ones who will be right there.

When the father of a friend passed, I realised at that moment that I would drop anything for anyone who I feel has had some impact to my life. Whether or not they reckon I'm important or worth their while, I'll do it. Is that a flaw? Or a strength? I'd rather leave that up in the air because I know I will continue to do so.

Then came the passing of my own father. That happened right after I tore my ACL and in the middle of National Day preparations. It was the moment I learnt what a huge heart the organisation I am apart of has. It was unbelievable. I was in the middle of dinner when the call came. I denied it. I wasn't going to believe it till I saw him. We made our way to NTFGH and there he was. It was tough but we all had to be strong. In a heart beat, the people who I was working with rallied around me and offered their support and condolences. His family was there with us in every single step. Again, another strong reminder that (1) this life is far beyond the control of any one of us and (2) the impressions you imagine would stick never do when onve mortality comes knocking. The love and support we received during that period was indescribable.

Then comes the passing of the mother of a close friend. He felt the need to worry that not enough people would be around to carry his mother. I can not even begin to tell you how my heart wrenched at that moment. I can't imagine having anyone I care about wondering if anyone would be there for them when they need it most. Quickly, mutual friends we knew rallied and supported him. Another reason to remember that I'm part of an organisation with people who know what truly matters and when to be there when it mattered.

I just wanted to put this down somewhere so I could look back at it and remember how such sad moments reminded me of how beautiful this world is. And how we need to remember to always maintain those relationships.