My 26th

~A playlist done by Rachelyn for me~

So I've been meaning to write for quite a while now and I guess I finally got the sense, wit and balls to write tonight. =)

So it's May and much has happened from January and yes, it's been one heck of a roller coaster. And I'm convinced the next half of year is not going to be any easier. Many conversations have been had about how we're gonna cope but somehow, we always fall back on the fact that things will work out. No couple, rational or irrational, can confidently state that they will always sail past troubled waters. Most of it is left up to fate and most of the time, all we have to depend on is each other.

I must say that things with her are insanely different from what I'm used to and to be honest, it is a actually a pretty good difference. It's alot more mature, a mutual understanding and a willingness to hear each other out. I guess it was important that I went through to all the relationships I went through to finally reach the state where I can truly appreciate what I have at this moment of time.

Thank you.

These 26 years, I've been through... Let's say that a lot doesn't seem to actually hit the spot. I've loved, I've lost. I've friended and I have have questioned those friendships. I thought I had the understanding of true love only to see it burn right in front of me. Heck, I'm even facilitating it because the foundation upon it is built on doesn't coincide with my values. Yes, the fact that he is related to me does worry me. I mean, how does one ignore genetics and upbringing, right? But I am the child of my beautiful mother as well and that is fact I will choose to hold on to. 

On the front of friendships, it's hard to comment and come to conclusion on what I have experienced but what I know I need to let out is that people change. For crying out loud, one of the most common sayings is that change is only constant. And if we are not willing to change, if we continuously believe that we are amazing individuals who do not require change or that we should ALWAYS be accepted for who are, then maybe we don't fully understand what dealing with real life is about. Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that you cannot be yourself. Sure you can. Go ahead, be yourself but be very aware of the consequences of doing so. And if it something you're willing to deal with, be my guest. If it isn't, then get with the program and be adaptable. Understand that the world revolves around the Sun and not us. I've gladly accepted that and I truly believe I'm a little happier for doing so. 

Happiness. Hah. Maybe a topic I shan't dwell too much into except for the fact that I'm 26 and it's about time I did what I could to make me happy. Before long it'll be down to me thinking about whether I've made the fullest of my life. That would be one heck of a moment ey.

As I take a deep breath and another sip of my Blue Moon (yes, it's soo fuckin good), I look back at my 26 years and realise that there isn't a point to speak about the the love I've had or lost. What matters is that thanks to everyone I've had the blessing to meet, I am person I am today. Am I unhappy with me now? Hell no. Are there things I can work on? Most definitely and that is the reason why I will continue to live. To push on. To exist.

Much Love, Good Night and Sweet dreams Starry skies. 

If the heavens ever did speak..

We were brought into world for a purpose. Or was it for multiple purposes? What were we actually placed here to do here?

Should we track back to pre-historic times where our objective was to prevent the extinction of our own species and to simply survive and then reproduce? Or should we look at the terms by which success is defined today meaning you've won the race the moment you own a car, yatch, mansion with 5 storeys and waaaay more rooms than your family has people. 

If the heavens could speak, what would they say about how we should love our lives. Sure there are holy scriptures that already have mentioned what we should be doing but what if we have a different perspective. What if we believe we should go off the path suggested by these scriptures. Does that make us sinners or entrepreneurs?

This world is full of contradictions that it makes it soo easy to lose yourself. It's easy to lose your loved ones. It's easy to lose your Higher being who ever he/she may be.

So then, how do we actually understand our purpose? Heck if I know but if you do, I'm all ears.

The Wedding Conversation

I don't like it. I don't fancy it at all.

I don't know what turns me off most about it but I guess it's the feeling of how formal the whole proceeding is. Reggy's wedding still is the best hands down and that's probably the concept I'll adopt.

Simple, laid back and as informal as possible. With all those that matter. A kickass reception with heaps of drinks and pumping music.

Heh! Now only if the bride would agree. Hmmm..

2015- Day 1

Literally chilled out with family and went through the photos of yesteryear. She was here too and probably the main reason why we decided to start going through the albums :) HAHA!

I realised that I wanted to share with her as much as I could. I wanted her to know me for me. I wanted her to realise that I'm here to bear my soul so she knows that there's someone there she could possibly place her trust, her heart.

It was also a good time to make me realise how far my family and I have come. A lot has change and many have moved on. There are of course the blessed ones who have stayed on throughout all that has happened and I could not be more proud to call you family. Yes, even the friends who have stayed on, you probably already know I consider you my family.

Good first day of the year and hopefully many many more to come. I must admit, the challenge of the year does faze me a little, but I shall not waver. :)

Happy 2015 you sexy bunch. :)

Thank you 2014, Hello 2015!!

2014 has been a blessing honestly. I look back at it and cannot be more sure that 2014 has definitely been one of the best years of my life. Of course there were the downs but overall, the highs do outnumber the lows. Soo much to be thankful for. Thank you 2014 and all the people who had a part to play in making it such an amazing year.

Time and Focus. That's what I know I need for 2015 because it's gonna be one heck of the challenging year with the crazy amount of stuff lined up, both at work and school. Final year at school so best we keep our fingers crossed! It's going to be crazy year for Rachelyn as well so we're gonna have to work extra hard to be able to fulfill all our commitments, especially our commitment to each other.

2015, bring it on. =)