If the heavens ever did speak..

We were brought into world for a purpose. Or was it for multiple purposes? What were we actually placed here to do here?

Should we track back to pre-historic times where our objective was to prevent the extinction of our own species and to simply survive and then reproduce? Or should we look at the terms by which success is defined today meaning you've won the race the moment you own a car, yatch, mansion with 5 storeys and waaaay more rooms than your family has people. 

If the heavens could speak, what would they say about how we should love our lives. Sure there are holy scriptures that already have mentioned what we should be doing but what if we have a different perspective. What if we believe we should go off the path suggested by these scriptures. Does that make us sinners or entrepreneurs?

This world is full of contradictions that it makes it soo easy to lose yourself. It's easy to lose your loved ones. It's easy to lose your Higher being who ever he/she may be.

So then, how do we actually understand our purpose? Heck if I know but if you do, I'm all ears.

The Wedding Conversation

I don't like it. I don't fancy it at all.

I don't know what turns me off most about it but I guess it's the feeling of how formal the whole proceeding is. Reggy's wedding still is the best hands down and that's probably the concept I'll adopt.

Simple, laid back and as informal as possible. With all those that matter. A kickass reception with heaps of drinks and pumping music.

Heh! Now only if the bride would agree. Hmmm..

2015- Day 1

Literally chilled out with family and went through the photos of yesteryear. She was here too and probably the main reason why we decided to start going through the albums :) HAHA!

I realised that I wanted to share with her as much as I could. I wanted her to know me for me. I wanted her to realise that I'm here to bear my soul so she knows that there's someone there she could possibly place her trust, her heart.

It was also a good time to make me realise how far my family and I have come. A lot has change and many have moved on. There are of course the blessed ones who have stayed on throughout all that has happened and I could not be more proud to call you family. Yes, even the friends who have stayed on, you probably already know I consider you my family.

Good first day of the year and hopefully many many more to come. I must admit, the challenge of the year does faze me a little, but I shall not waver. :)

Happy 2015 you sexy bunch. :)

Thank you 2014, Hello 2015!!

2014 has been a blessing honestly. I look back at it and cannot be more sure that 2014 has definitely been one of the best years of my life. Of course there were the downs but overall, the highs do outnumber the lows. Soo much to be thankful for. Thank you 2014 and all the people who had a part to play in making it such an amazing year.

Time and Focus. That's what I know I need for 2015 because it's gonna be one heck of the challenging year with the crazy amount of stuff lined up, both at work and school. Final year at school so best we keep our fingers crossed! It's going to be crazy year for Rachelyn as well so we're gonna have to work extra hard to be able to fulfill all our commitments, especially our commitment to each other.

2015, bring it on. =)

Priceless Experiences

Bastille- Pompei

So I'm in the plane on the way back home at the end of my month long stint in the States and it hits me, I just went to Phuket for the first time and experienced snow while in the US.

That's two pretty big things and for them to happen just before 2014 ends is simply splendid timing. But it's not over yet as there's still my trip to Bali, also for the first time, with Rachelyn.

Amazing. There really isn't another word to describe it. I've always told myself that I wanted to travel and I'm finally doing it. Just took a huge breath and it feels good.

So far 2014 has been good to me and all I'm doing is looking forward to 2015. It's gonna be a crazy ass year with heaps of commitments and goals to achieve for both Rachelyn and I but I believe we'll find a way to achieve them whilst building our relationship.

Yes, I've grown to quite like this girl. :)

A is for Artyyyy.

Iggas in Phuket!! 

There, this one la the girl I'm talking about. =)

Good Morning Lover.

I'm at a stage with Rachelyn that completely blows my mind. The level of which I think about her instantly sends me to Happyville and it looks like I'll be staying there for a while.

I'm amazed at so many of the things she does. Conversations are endless and we are always able to connect and speak about subjects form varying degrees. She constantly is able to surprise me with her perception and her opinions on the topics we are discussing.

It warms my heart to feel this way. In fact I'm pretty sure I've never felt this way about anyone I loved before her. This is scary to say but I'm head over heels for this girl to a level that I don't think I'll ever be happy if she left.

But I'm pretty damn sure she feels the same way too. 😁

She has this way if showing it that no one else comes close to. She's made me realise that I don't to hear the words. Her actions speaks way louder that those 3 words spoken.

She inspires me to be better and that is what I know I need in my life. I know I need her. :)  

Sleepless state of mind.

I can't for the life of me seem to be able to rest well the past 2 nights. I'm just really disappointed that I let someone else dictate how I should spend my time. I let myself be lead that someone who I believe I respect but I know I don't.

What of person does this make me. How have I been living this life?

These thoughts, these questions, they sicken me to my stomach but I cannot ignore them. Do I continue to just keep going and hoping for change or do I enforce it and not be able to look at myself in the mirror?

This life scares the living daylights out of me sometimes. And that makes me want to run. But then I ask, run where? To what?

Now that uncertainty daunts me even further.

Because I'm...

One month on and gosh am I happy! Of course we have our differences but honestly I feel they're the reason we need one another. Heh! Who would've thought right?

And they said what?

Remember how everyone told you it would feel soo much better if you actually shared how you feel.

I'll be the one to remind you that it rarely ever happens. Somehow you end up feeling even crappier now that you've placed it on someone else.
I'd like to say we're different but I'm not in the mood to dwell into that, too bad.

That fondly feeling

Heart that's filled with joy every time I know I've done something to make her day better. Even if that smile lasts for a mere 5 mins.

I'm very very fond of this girl and there is no denying it.

Nigel, get yourself together. No one likes a constantly sappy kinda love.