nothingness of my room- unknown

fuck, i got myself into a hole i did not want to dig.
i'm losing it.
i'm not stable anymore.
i need to fucking get these thoughts out of my head.
why oh why do i have to be like this.

maybe this is the point of my life where i'm getting what i deserve. after all the good god has given me, it's about time that i suffer.
i deserve this.